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Up up and away… ¿mania?


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I choose.  Deep breaths will help calm me.  I’m not anxious, but I feel possibly a little manic tonight.  It will be okay.  I recognize it.  I may have to skip the coffee tomorrow in favor of caffeine free tea.  I’d much rather feel this way than be depressed, but I know I have to watch myself, to avoid reckless behavior and to avoid the horrible letdown when my excessive passion makes me want to save the world and I fail!  Breathe!

Day 31/365 photos


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Mostly, I took photos of the sunshine today.  I love sunshine and I’m so thankful to have savored it today.  This is my favorite.  It’s not the best photo of the day, just my favorite.  Look how bright it is!

31/365+ proof of God’s love


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God’s love was proven to me in so many ways today.

First, my day began with humor.  Then the sunrise was amazing & the weather warm enough for a comfortable, not frozen, walk along the river at lunchtime.  A few issues were resolved that helped to ease my mind this afternoon… I won’t bore you with the details. 

Finally, a good friend is beginning her journey as a Christian and in talking with her about her newfound faith, I’m examining my own faith and all I really need to know is that my Heavenly Father loved me and all His children so much that He sent Jesus to pay the price for our sins, so that all who believe in Jesus and accept Him as their Savior may spend eternity in Heaven. 

It’s nice that I’m able to see proof of God’s love daily in little things, but to be reminded by a person new to the faith of the most extreme way that His love was exhibited, that is a huge blessing.

Finding Love


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Report as Manure


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For some reason unbeknownst to me, my brain likes to take the words my eyes see and change letters on me, so even if I’m glancing at something familiar, like the words “mature content” on the Word Press dashboard, which I see daily, my brain reads it to me wrong.  This happens frequently.  Sometimes, like now, it’s no big deal.  I’m alone, I can giggle at “report content as manure” without a single person giving me a funny look.  At other times, this happens when I’m meant to be serious.  Seldom when I type “LOL” am I really doing it, but when my wandering mind cracks jokes like this, I have difficulty not actually laughing out loud.  I’m too tired yet this morning to think of any other examples of my subconscious word play, but now that I think of it, couldn’t most websites use a “report content as manure” button?

Here’s to a happy Tuesday; I’m hoping my brain taking charge of my humor today means my mood will be less foul than it was on Monday!

30/365+ proof of God’s love


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I was in a foul mood much of the day, irritated by rapid-fire changes at work, other people’s attitudes, which at the very best were only perceived by me as relatively rude (I say perceived, I know this feeling that others were rude was very likely just that, my perception – email as the primary mode of communication lends itself to such misinterpretations) and I’m just feeling too old, too anxious, too yanked-around to be as flexible as I’ve been most of my life.  I’m feeling less-than-compliant and no longer particularly interested in being nice, even.  Forcing a smile all day is making it very difficult to find a real smile for my family, the people who are the reason I go to work every morning.  They don’t deserve to take the brunt of my foul mood and ever-increasing frustration, but they get it anyway and a small voice inside my weary heart tells me this isn’t how life is meant to be.  God first, then family, then work.  I must get my priorities straight and I’m beginning to believe a drastic change will be the only way to make that happen.

No longer am I the naive girl who keeps friends who manipulate, who stays in relationships that are unhealthy and even abusive.  Only I can make the decision to change the situation and while it’s a thought filled with the terrifying unknown, very soon I am sure I’ll find the faith to jump and realize I could have been flying all along.

So I come to my proof of God’s love on this thirtieth day.  Is it any surprise that the proof is in my children’s love for me and for one another?  Talk about unconditional.  In their sweet embraces and their musical I love yous, I feel my Father God, Daddy, wrapping me in His embrace and letting me know it’s all okay.  Even the foul mood.

Day 30/365 photos


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The sun hadn’t set yet when I got home from work this evening.  We don’t really have a good view of the sunset from our yard, but the fact that the sun was still visible at 6:00 p.m. offers some hope that while it will be awhile yet, winter will pass eventually, Spring will bring flowers and grass and buds in the trees and Summer will then be right around the corner.

With my tendency to attribute human characteristics to inanimate objects (I blame The Velveteen Rabbit and too many Disney movies), I think this little green tractor awaits warm weather as eagerly as I do.